Sorry Again

It's been a long time since I last wrote. Things are still good, I'm showing quite a bit now, and feeling very heavy, although I've lost a stone and a half since I found out I was pregnant.

I'm now 18 weeks gone, I am enjoying it more even though I'm very tired and a bit emotional sometimes. People have to take me as I am at the moment, I am getting sick of people asking if I am alright, I AM NOT ILL, I AM PREGNANT. I'm needing more and more time to myself, I find this helps me get my head round things easier. I like to spend my lunch time alone, and some people don't understand this. I suppose in a way I am enjoying my time alone because I know I'm not going to get much of it in a few months time.

I am absolutely dreading xmas, I pretty much feel this way every year because I feel like Chris's mum forgets that everyone is celebrating it and not just her family, she expects us to spend most of the day at there house, my family don't get a look in. My mum and dad don't really expect anything from us, they wouldn't even moan if they didn't see us on xmas day as long as we had a good day. Anyway next year it should change because the baby will be here by then, and we've told everyone that we want to spend xmas in our own home, mind you this probably means that his mum and dad will want to come round and watch the baby open the presents, again my mum and dad have told us that they will see us when we get chance, they don't want us to feel pressured. And I thought Xmas was meant to be fun!!!!!